I don’t know where this is going. I really have never had a clue what was happening, even though I’ve undertaken mad steps to see if I can take a peek under the hood to see just how the gears of the world work. I have engaged in the beginnings of shamanism, of seeing just what I can find out without resorting to pretension. There is ceremony and reverence and powerful symbols, to be sure, especially because of the nature of this undertaking.
What am I doing? I am casting spells for sole purpose of realigning the World Machine to work for the joy and benefit of my family and Tribe. I know there are ups and downs to everyone’s life, but it seems that, for the past year or so, there has been chaos of an unfriendly nature. I do my best not to think in terms of “I deserve,” especially since I know that I deserve nothing. I owe the world, not vice versa.
Nonetheless, it’d be nice if a little bit more Joy came walking down the pike, and I intend on doing everything in my power to let myself sit and wait and see what comes along.